I realize I have never explained my blog title - Jaki's Next Right Step.
One great piece of advice my OA sponsor gave me was to 'just do the next right thing'. I think this was probably in response to my incessant habit of trying to plan out and/or worry about the next ten years of my life. It might also have been during a time when I doubted my ability to complete a certain step in the 12 step process. Either way her advice was to stop looking at the big picture which was paralyzing me and just do the next right thing.
Some days the next right thing is choosing a healthy food or exercising regardless of lack of desire. Sometimes it's admitting my fears or helping someone else.
Sometimes the next right thing gets you in trouble. I did something hard this week. I did it to protect someone I love but they may not see it that way. Sometimes the next right thing makes a situation worse for awhile.
This happened to Moses. He told Pharaoh to let the Israelites go and instead, Pharaoh increased the slaves workload. Their difficult lives got increasingly worse and they were angry at Moses for it. Did Moses (who had an insecure, people pleasing personality) give up and go home or pull the covers over his head and cry like I would? Nope, he went to God. He did complain but he did it in prayer. And then, at God's instruction, he did the next right thing. He confronted Pharaoh again.
That story is for me this week. I don't know what the day/week/year has in store for me, but I can keep putting one foot in front of the other. I can do the next right thing.