Grr.... cooking should not be so hard. You follow a recipe and you get the result. That's how I remember it back before I started relying on so much processed food.
I do not remember falling on my face over and over and wasting food by creating failures. However, maybe that is part of why I quit in the first place. Maybe I just blocked the flops out of my mind.
Today I sliced my thumb grating carrots for cole slaw. I got a giant head of cabbage in the last co-op basket. Despite the fact that I did not have the right spices (realizing my spice collection is seriously lacking) it turned out basically the way I remember it. However, I didn't want to use the whole head of cabbage because it would go bad long before I ate it. A friend suggested a frozen slaw recipe. I found one that used things I had on hand (except for spices I thought I had). I had to boil vinegar, sugar concoction. It started to boil and before I could reach the burner control to turn it down, the mess erupted all over my stove. The smell of 'candied vinegar' burning on the stove was horrendous. It might also be permanently attached to the stovetop. All this for a dish I may not even like.
Two days ago I made chocolate banana bread that turned out well, but last week I made blueberry muffins that were burnt and greasy. The pre-made or even box mix ones never have that problem. =s
As with so many things in my life, I am just not great at this. I am ok, sometimes, and I can improve, but I don't think I'll ever be good at it. That leaves me fighting the temptation to quit.
Change is not easy.